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Tia Ballantine

the   tender   hour









             toad      ink on paper     1976   Tia Ballantine



This grouping of published poems signals a new beginning of an as yet disorganized manuscript that is still mysterious to me.  I am waiting -- listening and drawing as I wait, copying down what comes, dancing to the odd bells and whistles of the night.

I have entitled this group of poems the tender hour because they belong to those quiet moments close to the edge of day night and nerves.

eyes           Ezra Eismont




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Published: War, Literature, and the Arts 2009


EVER SOUNDS LIKE BIRTH

 
Angels in drag dance a too fast tango
that can’t be danced by anyone with bones.
They spin high blue lifting dust from dry ground
etch the sky floating wingless floating down.
They’re drifting bouts of pretty, sea fevers
specked with gold, bass guitars, wildflower seed,
bare feet. Rain mixed with frozen earth. Small hands
locked in minor key. This music demands
great flexibility but when dawn arrives
to stop the dance, light binds heat to stone, white
blue to fierce pink. Earth removes her skin
folds it into sky, hearts tucked well inside.
Then color sounds as a tap tap tapping
of song birds pecking at the heads of pins.

               

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                Published:  Saw Palm, 2006:



                A COMPREHENSIVE MAP OF PARADISE



            An alabaster angel with one hand flat against its cheek
            sits near a 19th century black carved coconut, balanced

            on a woven basket from Vietnam. Rain comes through
            the window and beads on the angel’s head. Across

            the room, a woman carved of ebony carries one hip
            forward and an empty water jar on her head. Her breasts

            are rubbed from black to tan, her back bared to four
            wingspread birds on a gold-stained lacquer screen. One

            a swallow, another a mocking bird, and two wet
            with silence. Like fingers, the fringe of the Mexican

            shawl drawn tight across the piano bench blows
            out on wind. Someone digs a hole beneath

            the banyan tree with a shovel
            that sounds like teeth.


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Pub. Mixed Nerve 1.3 (June 2007).


            FLOODGATES

            After driving around for an hour
            (or more) circling parked cars, I see a neighbor
            putting suitcases in her Cadillac.
            She’s off to catch the midnight plane. What luck.
            (The spaciousness of such a departure.)
            Glad to stop driving at last, I gesture
            my thanks to her. The rain’s coming down hard
            and I’ve a ways to walk but the car’s parked.
            As rain pulls the scent of blooming jasmine
            from night air and settles it on my skin,
            I wonder if the moon’s broken through dreams
            that line your night. I’m tired, ready for sleep
            for the forgiving radiance of dream,
            but can’t. I have overstayed my time.  Vivam
            Ovid writes to close his verse  I will live           
            I will last.  

                           So might we, cloaking ourselves
            in colors drawn from stone the emptied wells
            of memory of bone. The brightest silks,
            I think, are those that stay when skin leaves skin
            and eyes close against misremembered scent.
            The rain's more now than when this walk began
            and I’m washed out by flood.  Dark comes on slant,
            flat as panes of glass and I wish I had
            above me yards of yellow silk to act
            as a dam might, holding this rain on high
            as a hidden reservoir crystalline
            and blue: a perfect lens that opens sky
            to a wash of stars I rarely ever see.

            
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            ARCHEOLOGY

 
            Alone people possess an emptiness
            that's unapproachable, a dry color
            that sounds as ocean sounds, as shallow roar,
            flattened out to pounded tin: defenseless,
            marked with stars and hollow moons, relentless
            coming again and again past the one
            thing that spills but can't stay: mountains that flow
            to plains, leaving thin stains on flesh like breath
            and just as loud. Alone people cannot
            inherit strange names alive with glory
            or moss-green eyes. On their backs, they carry
            practical things like tissue paper hearts
            and hooks for climbing sea cliffs. They use teeth
            to peel stone, then read the signs locked beneath.


alarm         watercolor on paper      Tia Ballantine 1985  (sketch for oil painting 5'x5')